Welcome
to a Secret Subject Swap. This month 4 brave bloggers picked a secret
subject for someone else and were assigned a secret subject to interpret
in their own style. Today we are all simultaneously divulging
our topics and submitting our posts. Read through mine and at the bottom
you’ll find links to all of today’s other Secret Subject participants.
My subject is: What is the luckiest thing that has ever happened to you?
It was submitted by: Rena of The Diary of an Alzheimer's Caregiver.
Well, it is the month of St. Patrick's Day, isn't it? A month where we look for 4 leaf clovers and chase down that pot of gold at the end of a rainbow. My pot of gold looks a lot different from most, though.
I once won a trip for two to Hawaii. It's a bit of a convoluted story, but in the end, I won it. It was a raffle at a work Christmas party. My boss had actually won but you have to be there to get the prize and he had left, they picked again. When he found out, he was not happy. I did not care. I took my sister, and we went to Hawaii. Actually, the trip was to Honolulu, but after spending the free time there, we extended the trip on our own and went on to Maui. That was the luckiest thing that happened to me.
Until . . .
Hubs and I had moved to the Midwest shortly after getting married. We'd wanted children but it wasn't happening, so I went to a local doctor. He told us that we couldn't have children should go home and accept it. I called my Boston gynecologist, who told me to get to a teaching hospital, there are avenues to explore and possible options. Turns out the doctor who had been recommended to me here was affiliated with a Christian hospital and instead of responding to me medically, he had been practicing his religion on me.
I went to the local medical school hospital. Just about this time they were bringing in a reproductive endocrinologist from another city to start a reproductive department there. This doctor performed all the right tests, got the information she needed, and outlined the options. We were shocked to find out my tubes were fused shut. She tried to open them surgically, but failed, she could only get one partially open. The only biological option was IVF, the place where Hubs and I had drawn the line.
Funny thing about lines, they blur when you've got your toes up against them. But IVF 20 plus years ago was different from now. It was over $10,000 per try and not covered by insurance. The success rate was a terrifying 15%. We went for it. First try had to be stopped due to growths on my ovaries, there was a waiting period before I was cleared to try again. I got pregnant on the next try. And miscarried.
Emotionally fragile, and physically uncomfortable (I was allergic to one of my multiple daily shots) we decided to give it one more try. I did get pregnant, but was understandably nervous that this would end in disaster too. And I was both sick and having sharp pains. The doctor watched me closely, but one night at about the 3 month mark, in the middle of the night, I started to see blood. My panic was exacerbated by the fact that Hubs was out of town, and the local tornado sirens were blaring. I sat straight up in bed until morning and drove myself to the hospital, knowing I was having another miscarriage.
My doctor's partner did an ultrasound and sent me right to the surgical unit. Maud, my doctor, came out, told me that the viable pregnancy had an ectopic twin ironically growing in the end of the tube we'd opened. That tube, supposed to be the size of a hair, was the size of a sausage and had to come out now. Had it ruptured, I probably would have died. I looked at her and, with tears in my eyes, said (of the fetus still in my womb), "please, just save my baby." Maud turned to the patient who happened to be sitting next to me and explained that her egg retrieval would have to be put off for a few hours. The woman looked at me, then looked at Maud and, with tears in her eyes, said "please, just save her baby."
I was hospitalized and on narcotics when my husband's plane landed. The surgery had been rough and we didn't know if the trauma would result in a miscarriage of the other fetus, only time would tell. I wasn't just in pain, I was terrified about one and actively mourning the other. The next morning, a Sunday, Maud came into my hospital room holding her young daughter. "I know you're mourning," she told me as she turned her daughter towards me, "but I wanted to stop by on my way to church to remind you of what you still have."
Seven months later I brought my son home. It was the luckiest thing to ever happen to me.
Until . . .
I had frozen embryos we'd decided to take. Yet again, everything had to be abruptly stopped when the embryos weren't viable at transfer time. We made the difficult decision to try another cycle. One more. It ended in a pregnancy.
I was 10 weeks along when I'd gone back home for a visit. Hubs was back in the Midwest working, but I wanted my young son to spend some time with my family, swimming in the family pool and going to the beach. It was there where I woke up one morning cramping, in a pool of blood.
Maud called my Boston gynecologist who ordered an ultrasound. It felt like a death sentence, waiting for confirmation that I'd miscarried. Again. My sister, sitting by my side, asked the ultrasound tech what she was seeing. Techs aren't allowed to disseminate medical information, they can only report findings to a doctor. I'd been down this road before though, I knew what I was seeing and started to cry. "That flashing light," I told my sister, "is a heartbeat."
I was put on bed rest. I was bleeding out a blood clot and, once again, playing a waiting game to see if the fetus in my womb would stay or go.
Eight months later, my family was complete. And it was the luckiest thing to ever happen to me.
In this month of leprechauns and four leaf clovers, the pot at the end of the rainbow did not hold money for me. Luck was in the form of something way more valuable.
Mint Cheesecake Cups
I wish you leprechauns, and 4 leaf clovers, (and Mint Cheesecake Cups), and a rainbow, at the end of which you find whatever it is that makes you feel the luckiest.
Here are links to all the sites now featuring Secret Subject Swap posts. Sit back, grab a cup, and check them all out. See you there:
The Diary of an Alzheimer’s Caregiver
Climaxed
Part-time Working Hockey Mom
Mint Cheesecake Cups
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Ingredients:
1/3 cup mint M&Ms
12 mint Oreo cookies
12 oz cream cheese, softened
2 TBSP sour cream
1/3 cup brown sugar
1/2 tsp mint extract
2 eggs
2 TBSP mullticolored nonpareils
Directions:
*Preheat oven to 325 degrees. Place cupcake liners into the wells of a 12 well cupcake pan.
*Chop the mint M&Ms. Set aside.
*Gently run a knife around the inside edges of one of the Oreo wafers and separate so you have 2 chocolate cookie wafers, one plain and one with the mint filling. Place the halves without the filling into the bottom of the cupcake liners, flat side facing up. Set the other halves aside.
*Beat the cream cheese, sour cream, brown sugar, and mint extract until smooth, then beat in the eggs, one at a time. Mix in the chopped M&Ms.
*Spoon the cheesecake filling into the liners, about 2 TBSP in each. Top with the reserved cookie halves, cream side up. Sprinkle with the nonpareils.
*Bake for 20 - 25 minutes, until the cheesecake is set. Cool completely and refrigerate.